Blowing The Whistle

I did some research about whistle blowers. Selfish - to find myself a support group and resources. Stupid and naive - there aren't any because most whistle blowers die shortly after.

The collective conscience of the country is to demand people to "speak truth to power" and then to run the hell away from them as far and as fast as their obese stumpy legs can carry them when the whistleblowers do. We stand alone. You can't imagine how alone until people you know literally turn their backs to you, or pretend not to hear you, or run like cockroaches with their overladen grocery carts down the aisles to safety.

Imagine living years without speaking more than "please" and "thank you" to store clerks. Imagine a life going by where you play by all the rules and are figuratively and literally beaten to a pulp.

It's a death sentence of a lifetime of fully sensitized nerves feeling every volt of electricity. The sentence of being fully awake, eyes pinned open, ears alert, nose detecting the reek of ostracism and of condemnation.

There is no parole. There is no next chapter. There is no rehabilitation.

Once a whistle blower, there is only the prolonged death.

It is unimaginable, and so explaining it in writing causes people to flee. Turn the page, click on another site, avert one's head after rubbernecking and getting a glimpse of the carnage that has been wrought.

With my remaining time, I am going to write a book.

Chapter one: Whistle-blowing - what it is
Chapter two: What leads up to it
Chapter three: Immediate retaliation
Chapter four: Isolation, ostracism and shunning
Chapter five: Losing security - true terrorism
Chapter six: Losing family, friends, social supports, losing church (if you had one), losing social connectedness, losing career, losing identity, losing home, then shelter, losing humor, losing hope, losing humanness (all of this needs to be re-ordered)
Chapter seven: No health for you
Chapter eight: Death - the end of suffering, as a goal